Subtleknees

So I took my love of the kawaii and the 3d and turned it to nail art and GAUDY AS FUCK 3d nails.

I'll be uploading some images sooooon.

And I so got that dremmel. I got it so good.

But then I started growing my nails out and I haven't used it as much lately lol, BUT when one of these puppies breaks I'm so set. Think I may do my pinkie nail just cos... cos i miss it.

Still working with acrylic and I wanna get a practice finger. Been making some sets, may try to sell them on etsy, not sure.

Made some salt bars for me friends n fam, THEY LATHER FOR 4 HOURS. Actually can make the soap look a little funky if you leave the lather on it and dont rinse it, but omg I'm so good at soap. lol.

Also if anyone else is watching the deep fear retsu... wtf is happening guys? Im so lost... I've seen it like 4 times now. Still so fucking lost.

I need to talk to people.

I need to not hide and hermit.

I need to tell people things that are unflattering and hillarious.

I need to tell people things that make me happy and feel good without thinking i'm rubbing their faces in my happiness... because sharing is caring.

BUT THERE ARE SOME REASONS

AND ALSO SOME PICTURES,

WHICH IF YOU SAW THEY WOULD RIP YOU APART.



AND I

WONT

WATCH

YOU



CRAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAI! Goodbye. I'm an asshole.

The sad realizations of the dying:

1. I wish I'd had the courage to live a life true to myself, not the life others expected of me.

2. I wish I hadn't worked so hard.

3. I wish I'd had the courage to express my feelings.

4. I wish I had stayed in touch with my friends.

5. I wish that I had let myself be happier.

SO AS SOMEONE WHO'S ALREADY SUPER GUILTY OF ALL THESE THINGS AT THE TENDER AGE OF 20, IIIIIIIIII'm kinda terrified lol

BUT. No one is static, and we all get to chaaaaaaaaaaaange!

Going to return a shitty electric nail file. I NEED A DREMMEL. Anyone who wants multiple sets of fake nails that are incredibly over the top and glamorous and are totally customizable, Buy me a handheld dremmel and I'll make you 10 sets of nails. Soon I'll upload my best designs, but oh man I need a dremmel so fucking badly.

First off, another asshole song has become lodged deep in the folds of my brain. Listen to it, and try to restrain yourself from ejaculating uncontrollably all over the room.

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(WHY? - These Few Presidents)

Look I've even made it endless for you.

Do it.

Do eeeeeeeet.

"At your house, the smell of our still living human bodies and oven gas.
You pray to nothing out-loud; Two first names and an ampersand embroidered proudly on a kitchen towel.
You're a beautiful and violent work with a skinny neck of a Chinese bird in a fading ancient painting.
And if you're in heaven waiting
you made it there fighting
the tightest kite string
in a bad storm with lightning"
~
"I thought I had a pebble in my sock, I pulled it off and shook out a wasp
it stumbled out lost, and without a pause
un-stung as I was, still I stomped it;
I thought, 'There is no paved street worthy
of your perfect scandanavian feet... wut wut whaaaaaaaaaaa
my crooked chinese fingers groped the machinery of your throat"

Even though I haven't seen you in YEARS yours is a funeral I'd fly to from anywhere <3

My motivation is shit, my ambition is shit, I have stopped investing in self and the stock market collapse has left me collapsed too. As broken as an old abandoned church with fucked up pews and empty aisles. No more shall happiness seem like a defense to those who'd hurt me instead of something genuine. And I don't like monogamy whatsoever. And I may have a bit of a new fetish I want to explore. Fucking want to rip off all the latex skin off and get down to virgin cuticle flesh. Thats not the fetish. ITS A METAPHOR GET IT GET IT GET IT.

And I love doing my nails. New hobby. All things come second to nails.

Not true, but thats what it was like at first.

Ladies with peely brittle nails: Get the overlays of gel or acrylic if you want long awesome nails. Swear to you, never in my life have I been more happy with my nails than now.

And I ordered micro-bead extensions... Long hair long nails and I'm a fucking disney princess goddammit. I WILL ACHIEVE THAT LEVEL OF FALSE BEAUTY, I WILL MEET THE DISNEY LIE HEAD ON AND PLANT MY FLAG SQUARE IN SNOW WHITE'S FACE.

Oh shit I forgot I need to go to the bank before it closes.

youtu.be/RFrmo7hUdDQ

Show these guys some love! Crazy good lyrics/acoustic combo.
Lyrics to Coward's Lament, I'm just reposting ;D

Well the dragons, they breed. Skies overpopulated,
And nobody notices, patches of shaded.
Grasses and bricks, that form castles that stand
as a false testament to the triumph of man.
When did all of the heroes stop being selected?
And why can't they be accurately reflected?
They say the sword bows to the might of the pen,
For the blade's wound is clean, while the ink will bleed in.

Chorus: And I know I'm a coward, I know I'm a slave, to the same fucking reasons you'll never be saved,
By this unchosen hero, this futile attempt. I will fight for myself, because no one's been sent.

Is it heroes or heroin, that we want most?
for the heroes are dead, all that's left are the ghosts.
That sing when I'm sleeping, requiems relentless,
To the notion that I may one day save the princess.
but she isn't trapped, for the trapped one is me,
like a crow in the cage of this ugly body.
I'm the scorn of the fates, bound to be second best,
but she's playing that organ that sings through my chest.

(Chorus)

When did all of the heroes stop being selected?
because I need one now, and I want him dissected.
Is his heart made of gold, for mine's heavily gilded,
and a practical joke by the sick man who built it.
Well I'll tear off my skin to attract all the beasts,
Said you wanted a hero, well you got the least,
But I disregard life, 'cause I don't give a damn,
I know I'm not chosen, but i know what i am.

Chorus 2: I know I'm a coward, I know I'm a slave, to the same fucking reasons you'll never be saved.
By this unchosen hero, this futile attempt, Unimpressive, unclean, and foremost: unsent.

Well I wanna be the chosen one, instead of this weak bastard I know I've become.
Riding on the words of a wise, dying man, I know I'm not chosen but I know what I am...

Got these holes in my hands, 'cause I've chosen to dance,
With a breakable infant, who carries a lance,
No ma'am I'm not your savior, just a passing glancer,
No, I'm not your hero, I'm part of the cancer,
That's fueling the banter of the homeless man,
The end is approaching, so lie while you can,
Our hero' a rogue, a rapscallion, a thief,
While everyone waits for undeserved relief,
And this force-field's a fortress, this force-field's a cage,
This haven's a hydra, forever to slay,
boxes without boxes, and keys without locks,
and this just doesn't work: paradoxical oxen,
surrounded by farces that you call belief,
Where's my catharsis, and where's my relief?
I'm trapped between a hard place and two mirrors,
the illusion ensuing makes my task much clearer.

FUCK YOU, YOU'RE NOT ME, I'M ME, SO FUCK YOU.

Finished that cunting bitch of an institution, FUCK YEAH.

FINISHED IT WITH A 95 AVERAGE TOO, SO HA HA HA SUCK MY DICK.

Y'all were like, "Har har, cause you're still in high-school and I'm in UNIVERSE-CITY!"

Now I'm like,

"AHAHAHAHAHA HAVE FUN PAYING BACK THAT STUDENT LOAN FOR THE REST OF YOUR LIFE."
and
"OH YEAH WELL AT LEAST I DIDN'T PISS MY LIFE AWAY ON A CAREER I ONLY THOUGHT I WANTED."

So, watch me kick some ass, make some goddamn money and start fucking shit up. And, guess who will be paying for Uni with cold hard cash, well earned and saved? Me. Because when I pay for that shit, I will take every iota of what they can give me, and I will abuse whatever university is lucky enough to get my brain, and unlucky enough to get my brain.

Ramble ramble ramble DIE. Either way, har har. I am god of sea people.

Sofuckinglad I went my way, instead of the societal norm. Taught myself ruthless determination.

And stop fucking skypetexting me asshole. Creeper too. Lurkcreep. C'mon, your life can't be that boring.